conversations.........

These are the kind of evenings that I'm glad I don't live by myself. Sometimes I'll get a bit down about the fact that I don't own my own place and live alone......but I also know that I'm such a people person and get my energy from being around people that I don't know how well I'd do by myself.

I had my youth group this evening which went well, but there was just a conversation at the end of the evening that left a bitter taste in my mouth.........you know one of those conversations you're having with someone where they just don't get what you're saying, you know that they're skirting around things instead of facing it head on and hiding behind religious jargon and wording.......it was one of those conversations........and having just poured myself into a youth group for 3 hours (with setting up, organisation time, talk, games etc) I just didn't have the energy to sift through what had been said and figure it all out.

Anyway when I got home I got into a conversation with Mair and she was showing what she'd bought me on her shopping trip with her daughter today, the art project she's currently doing, what swimsuit to buy next and whether Birkenstocks are a good buy (which I think they are by the way;-)........we just chatted about the mundane things.

And as I was walking the 2 flights of stairs to my room, I realised I was thanking God in my heart for where I live, the compainionship and the conversation that had just occurred had completelytaken my mind off the earlier conversation, and it meant I was now in a better place to go and deal with this conversation. I had a clearer head and heart, and could look at the objectively rather than out of a place of exhaustion and emotions........

I have no idea whether all that makes sense, but it's been good for me to write it down!!!