Missing in action......

Well guys, I'm getting ready to load my little car up with as much camping equipment as is possible to fit in and head south down the M6 and M5 to the Royal Bath and West Showground to the Soul Survivor festival.

Am so looking forward to the 2 weeks off work and spending 10 days with friends and getting to know God better. Am realising that I have fears that dwell deep within me that need to be broken. I am so scared of 'losing it' at the main meetings and 'breaking down' in front of people. I have been going through a bit of a change in my thinking and perception of who God is recently and it's been really difficult at times; heart breaking at points some of the stuff God has revealed to me. I've come to realise that because we had to 'keep it together' when mum was ill and before she died, I hate letting my emotions go in front of people and being vulnerable to people. That is one of my biggest fears that I am going with, but one I know that needs to change.

Another one is that God will interact with everyone else but me. I know that this goes against what the bible says and that this is the enemy whispering lies in my ear, it's just really difficult to refute these lies at times.

Oh my goodness I make it sound like I'm dreading it!! I'm not honestly, just a little nervous.

It will be an absolute miracle if my car (Fellulla the Fiesta) gets down there. I am taking

2 gazebos

2 tents

2 suitcases

2 camping cookers

1 gas bottle

All cooking stuff

1 wind breaker

6 airbeds

6 water containers

2 cool boxes

etc, etc........

Rachael and I go on Monday along with our Irish friend the lovely Heather and then Jon and Sandra bring the kids down on Saturday and we are there till Thursday with them. Sandra has managed to get us all Welsh bandanas; she had to order them from America!

I won't be able to post while I'm away so unless there is something that I'm wanting to say tomorrow I'll chat to you in a few weeks.

Love and blessings all

Ems x x